Thanks to family and friends

Here my mom is helping Macy clean!

It's been a long week and all I have to say is THANK

HEAVENS for family and friends. I'm going to keep

this post short since I will go into excruciating detail

on the fertility blog I'll be working on real soon!:) I

finally have enough energy to sit and check the blogging

world. It's been a while. A few short details: Early Wed.

3:30 a.m. I awoke to the worst pain I've ever felt in my

whole life. I was crouched on the bathroom floor for

about 30 to 40 minutes. I had found out the day before

from the doctor that I was still pregnant (despite my 5 days

of bleeding which I thought was a miscarriage) and so they

did a vaginal ultrasound to see what they could see. They

didn't see anything in the uterus at that time so she said

either it was too early to see it or it could be an ectopic

pregnancy or a miscarriage. I was optimistic until 3:30

rolled around. I knew it wasn't just any old miscarriage so

I told Joe to run in and research ectopic because I had heard

it could be life threatening. Meanwhile I'm on the bathroom

floor moaning and groaning. Long story short, I had an ectopic

pregnancy which resulted in an emergency surgery where I lost

my left tube and a liter of blood. They thought they might need

to do a blood tranfusion so they watched my blood pressure very

closely for 4 hours. I was determined not to be admitted so I

made sure I passed all the required tests to get the heck outta

there. A normal blood pressure is 110 and mine was down to

64 so it took a bit for it to raise. What a miserable day that was.

There is so much detail I want to share, but it really would take

up a ton of space so I'll do all that on the other blog, but I just

wanted to thank all of my friends and family for their help.

Rachelle for staying with the kids and cleaning my house,

Kala for watching my kids. Jaylynn brought me dinner that

first night and watched the kids the next morning until their

nap. Rachelle kept bringing them home for me and putting

them down for their nap. Nicole watched my kids and brought

us dinner the next night. Of course my mom for watching kids,

cleaning, cooking, bathing kids, just about everything. What

would I have done without all these great people?! Last but not

least, my awesome hubby who stayed by my side the whole

time. He's been great about getting me what I need and

making sure I'm comfortable. I'm so grateful for the gospel

in my life and my testimony. I don't know what I would

have done without the two priesthood blessing I received. One

from Joe and one from my dad. I know without a doubt that

they eased my pain and helped me through a really rough time.

I will share more about all this later because it really to me and

even to the doctor (who was my previous bishop) was a miracle

how I came out through all of this. Just thought I would let you

all know I was still alive!

I'm brave to post this picture. Joe took it from his phone

in the recovery room. The nurse, who was soooooooooooo

awesome said as they released me~ that in her 25 years of

being a nurse she has never released anybody who looked

so bad! I was so pale and I mean look at me, not pretty. I

had to chuckle a little bit at her comment though. I hadn't

seen myself but I felt like a was hit by a truck so I knew she

was probably right. I think my next endevour is to make

hospital gowns that are a little more attractive, although

this one is off the shoulder and just about letting me flash

you on one side! What's sad is, I still pretty much look like

this as I sit here and type. I haven't done make-up or hair

for a good 5 days and anyone who's come to my door, I'm

so sorry to have frightened you! Even my own son wouldn't

come to me for about a 1/2 hour when I first came home. He

really was scared of me. I don't blame him! It just goes to

show that anyone can look good with a little make-up and

a flat iron!