So grateful

This post will mostly be journaling, but also some great news.
I can finally say it. I'm pregnant!! A miracle, I'll tell you that
much. Of course I was nervous about this one considering I
had a miscarriage about a year ago and then an ectopic
pregnancy in April. You just never know what could go wrong.
I finally had my first appointment today where I heard the
heartbeat. That's such an awesome sound. It took him a
little longer than I was hoping and I was getting quite nervous
thinking, it's gotta be there and finally, there it was. Whew!
I've been telling the kids for a while now and today Macy
asked if I had a baby in my tummy and I told her I did, but
that we wouldn't see the baby until my tummy got really big
and so as he's trying to find the heartbeat she says, "mommy
is your tummy really big?" I guess she's ready! She has
definitely let us know she wants another brother. No sister
she says. I think she doesn't want any competition. Brady
doesn't quite comprehend it yet. It'll be interesting to see as
I get bigger what both their reaction will be.
The doctor said my uterus felt a little big and is wondering if
I could be having twins again, but then also wonders if it could
be that I've already had twins that it's bigger than usual. Oh,
dear. Only about 10 weeks until I found out. We've always
joked that since I got twins with invitro, we'll probably get
twins on our own since twins run in both our families. I'll
take whatever I can get.
I've definitely felt more tired and sick than Brady and Macy,
but I'm not sure if that's because I'm home thinking about
it all day and I was working before, who knows. That's why
I've been so lazy though. I usually love getting out and going
places, but not anymore. I don't want to go ANYWHERE, at
all! UGH. It's getting a little better, but I'm definitely feeling
more like a homebody. I'm usually dragging Joe out on the
weekends and now he's trying to drag me out and I want
nothing to do with it. That's why I've been in a hat almost
everywhere I go and occasionally in my yoga pants. I really
just don't care:) I'll be done with my first trimester next
week and I can already tell. I'm getting back to my normal
self which is nice. Weird what a little tiny embryo can do to
you!